Wasted Continuum

I’d like to first wish all of you a happy new year. I was shown today that life does not adhere to artificial timelines. I get caught up a lot with thinking that once the new year comes around, everything will be bright and shiny. That did not happen for me. My grandpa went to the hospital again today. Those of you who have followed my photos for a while knows that I spent a lot of time last year seeing people I love in the hospital. I’m trying to keep my spirits up and I know I have a lot of support from friends, which I’m thankful for. I guess I’m trying to say that life doesn’t not stop for anything. We all need to deal with everything that life throws at us and that can happen at any moment. And I know this is cliche, but don’t take life for granted. If you want something, you need to take it and hold on to it. Life is precious and nothing ever goes as planned.

I don’t mean to make any of you sad with this, but my 365 is supposed to capture the current moment of my life and today I can’t be happy. So I hope you guys can be happy for me until I bounce back on my feet. Also, go give the person or people you love a hug now. Tell them you love them.

I went to visit my grandfather twice tonight, once before dinner and once after. Everyone around me is just too calm and I’m just freaking on the inside. I am quite positive that I am the one who is overreacting, but that doesn’t put me at ease. He is looking better and he’s very alert and talkative. They’re still running tests on him tomorrow and he’ll probably have to stay at least until Saturday. I’m feeling better than yesterday.

Sigh…not a good day. My grandfather was admitted to the hospital today. He had fluid in his lungs. They won’t be able to tell us what the cause until tomorrow when he gets an ultrasound. I really don’t like hospitals. It’s almost never good when I need to be there. I spent a lot of time in hospitals as a kid. Not good memories. So right now I don’t know if it’s serious or not. I’m a big worrier and right now it’s going into overdrive. I’m trying to stay positive. I’m sure everything will be okay.